Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The Hardest Day of My Life

was 10 years ago today! At just 18 years old I had to tell my family I was pregnant. I can still remember how ashamed I was. I cried and cried and couldn't even get the words out.
I remember praying the night before and asking God for forgiveness. I knew God still loved me even though I had failed and he would help me through this. I re-dedicated my life to the Lord that night and new everything was going to be ok. I now was more worried about what everyone was going to say? I just couldn't imagine telling my dad! I kept thinking of his parents and what they would say? What would everyone think of me?
I also was scared about becoming a mom.
I had never changed a diaper before ever! I remember hearing about an episiotomy for the first time and freaking out and knowing that this baby had to come out. I was scared.
I had a healthy pregnancy and gave birth to a healthy baby boy. We got married 3 months later.
God is good!

Justin and I have been happily married for 9 years now and just had our 5th baby. We proved a lot of people wrong. We are so thankful to God for turning a bad situation into the best situation.
Every time I look at my son Austin it is a reminder of God's mercy. He is the most amazing boy and I thank God for him everyday! I thank God for my husband and the man and father he has become.
I thank God for the life and children he has blessed me with even though I don't deserve it.
Happy New Years everyone...... may God continue to bless you in the new year!!!


Loni's World said...

Congrats on things working out. You have a beautiful family and I am sure it was worth it. :)
You had to grow up fast just as I did in but in different ways.
But that made you who you are.

Happy New Year!!!

P.S. I just found the Capri suns yeah you know the ones I was supposed to mail months ago. lol
I am forcing myself to mail them before the weekend it over. (if she still wants them?)

Brianna said...

I still remember this day. You pulled me out of the shower to tell me and made me go downstairs with you to tell Mom. Crazy how something you thought was a major mistake has turned into a miracle.

maria said...

Read your post with tears running down my face..I was once wearing the same shoes in my life at age 17..reading your post was like remembering a part of my son is now 14. His father and I married but it did'nt last, but through it all I held on to God and he has seen me through and am now married to a wonderful man. I am so happy that God has blessed you with such a wonderful family! Keep on blogging:) I love reading your post! Have a Happy and Blessed New Year!


JenCoen said...


Happy New Year Ryan Family!

~Love, the Coen family

Rochelle said...

I truly believe you will be more in awe of that situation the older austin gets! He was fearfully and wonderfully made and the best part is he was not a mistake to God! :) As he grows up and is used by the LORD ((because that boy has a major calling on his life)) it will be even more miraculous to look back at the silliness of our youth and how God makes beauty out of ashes. I am soo blessed to have you in my life and I love you! ;) Have a happy new years day with your family!! Hopefully we'll get together soon-- once i'm out of the nicu pit lol

Hollie said...

happy new year bridget!

Hollie said...

happy new year bridget!

kristina16marie said...

Isn't it amazing how God can take something we think is horrible or tragic and turn it around for His glory? Praise be to God, for He is GOOD!

The Achee Family said...

I can totally relate. Great post

Julie said...

I remember the same thing in June a little over 8 years ago... I thought the world was over.. Well, it kind of was for me.. You are an amazing person and have an amazing family. We miss you guys tons and hope you have a wonderful 2009!!

Aimie said...

Your family was just meant to be sweetie! You are blessed!