Sunday, September 13, 2009

Don't Go There Girlfriend!

This picture has nothing to do with the post, just Farrah after she got into my make-up!
At least the black eyeliner is somewhat around the eye,(a little on the arm) and the lip gloss in on the lips (kind-of.) I just don't understand why she thought the big glob of lip gloss in the middle of the forehead was necessary?

"Don't go there, girlfriend!" I have a friend who says that to me when I start heading down the self-pity pit. This week I thought I'd throw my self a little pity party. It's over now! I went shopping and got some new make-up and 3 new much needed bras! ha! The simple things in life that make this mom feel better:)
You see, once I get down in that pit, it's hard to claw my way back out. For me, all it takes is dwelling on something negative for a few minutes (like the 5lbs I've gained when I've been trying to lose) or not knowing where we will be living in less than 3 weeks) and the next thing I know, I am looking up from the center of the yucky pit.
It's like the devil knows what buttons to push in order to make me feel down.
Have you ever watched a college cheerleading squad? Their motions are perfect, in sync and very sharp. If one member is behind a half a count, everyone can tell.
Well, I feel like a cheerleader who is a half a step behind the entire routine. Sometimes it seems that a lot of the moms I know have it all together and I'm kicking with the wrong leg. The devil loves to point out my shortcomings and whisper things like, "Ok, Bridget who do you think you are?" "How can you even homeschool when you don't even have a house to homeschool in etc..."
This week I'm taking my friends advice and I'm not going there!!! I'm going to think positive! I believe that is why the Bible tells us to think on good and lovely things because God knows how we get. When I start to compare myself to other mom's or start to worry about the future, I'm going to stop and right then begin thanking God for giving me the wisdom and strength to be the best mom I can be. I'm going to thank God for the plans he already has in store for me. That way if I respond to the devil with praise for the Father, I'll send him packing!

19 comments:

Scrapingirl said...

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Shopping for bras tend to get me more frusterated than anything. :) That little girl of yours is too cute.

Heather said...

You are a very strong woman! I think we all get caught up in the negative aspects of life sometimes and forget to sit back and realize the positives we have and what we have to be thankful for! This has been a struggle for me lately, but when I get those thoughts...I try and remind myself what I have to be thankful for! God won't give you more than you can handle. I admire you for your strength through all of your hard times, and I pray that you will find a home soon! Everything will be ok =)

Twisted Cinderella said...

I sometimes feel like the other moms have it all together and I am struggling to get caught up. ((hugs))

I do find that a change in attitude and a few minutes doing something for me (like shopping for me because I never do) makes all the difference in the world)

Crazy Homeschool Mama said...

so true!

I am blessed! said...

There was a story in the papers a few years ago about a homeless woman who homeschooled her kids out of the car they lived in. It made the papers when one of her kids became a national merit scholar and got into an ivy league school. If she could do it, you can:)!

rottylover79 said...

I love how you tell it like it is. You have no shame in not being the 'perfect' mom. But what I think a perfect mom is, is everything you are. In other words, if a mom can admit they aren't perfect, chances are, your children and husband do! :)

Jessica said...

Comparing ourselves to other mothers is the first thing that will throw me into a pit! I was just telling my husband about your blog last night! I love the way you homeschool, you just don't stick with premade assignments! I would love to meet you one day. (even if you are homeless) yay for new bras! I will be praying for peace and joy in your heart and mind! Praying a place to live falls in your lap. We are in Walnut and LOVE it!

Medication Might Help..... said...

Life has a funny way of working out.. It always seems that when I am at my lowest and cant seem to find a solution, LIFE just falls into place. Good luck

Emily said...

If it makes you feel any better, the enemy attacks me in the same way! Sometimes I call on God immediately because I know that is the power of knowing scripture ~ Satan will flee!!! Other times, I stay in this pit allowing the enemy to control my mind and then I'm like, "Oh yeah, isn't this the place I'm suppose to call on God?" Hello, what was I thinking?? Here's what I'm trying to focus on daily ~ more of you God, less of me! God is in control, so I take comfort in knowing that he still reigns and despite all of the wacky things going on in my head, my life and the world around me ~ none of it has thrown him off course! He's still moving forward with HIS plan and promises to (Romans 8:28) work things together for the good of those that love him!!! Have a GREAT day and keep on being exactly who God created you to be!!!

Heather said...

I was just listening to a song that made me think of you and thought it could lift your spirits right now =)

It's called "Hope Now" by Addison Road.

Shannon said...

Hmmm... I think of you as "one of those mom's who has ut all together"! :) By the way, let me remind you that somewhere on your sidebar I remember seeing a saying that says, "We may not have it altogether, but TOGETHER we have it all!"

And it'll be okay if they miss some homeschool... we are soooo "behind", but you are going to have a chance to teach them about packing, organizing, minimizing, making major financial decisions, how to start new, have utilities connected, etc.. Maybe you can use each thing as a hands-on field trip. Teach them about electricity and the way it connects and comes to ur house. Maybe the electric people willl do a little "teaching" for you and explain some aspect of it. Then, just let your olders write you a little report about what they learned. Same with the phone company, etc.... teach them about possible self employment opportunities like being a moving company... (LOL... they're getting lots of experience, right!!) I am really not joking. Make school what is going on in their life right now. Teach them how to handle it and embrace it rather than get down. I am not saying that will be easy -- or that I would be good at it, BUT "YOU ARE ONE OF THOSE MOMS" AND YOU CAN DO THIS ANND SHOW US ALL A LESSN IN HOW WE SHOULD DO IT SHOULD WE EVER HAVE TO!! You are and can be an example for us all, but mostly an example to your kids AND YOURSELF AND G~O~D !!! I'm getting excited for you because I think you can do this!!! ;)

Karla said...

Bridget, your honesty is very refreshing.

Have you read any of Nancy Leigh DeMoss's books? Lies Women Believe is especially excellent and might encourage you right now.

Susan said...

Sweetheart, you are in my prayers. Just remember to keep God in the very center, and everything else will come together in the end. And it will be even better than you had dared to hope.

Love, Susan

Lemonade Makin' Mama said...

You go girlfriend!!! I'm so sorry you are fighting this, but you rock, and you are an inspiration and a delight and you can totally do it! Hang in there.

Nicholle said...

Hang in there Bridget. I know things will start getting better for you. You will find the perfect place to live. Please let me know if you need something.

Bridget said...

You guys Rock! All of you! Thanks for being my girlfriends!!!!

Rochelle Ax said...

I love you! :) hey, please call or text me... i have no cell numbers since i changed my phones... MISS YOU! :)

Adrienne said...

You should never compare yourself to other mothers. No body is perfect, and if they say they are, they are lying. You are teaching your children how to be a strong mommy when the times are tough. They will remember that forever!!

Kristie's Kin said...

Thanks for reminding me to "not go there" either! I'm trying not to! Brayden is a VERY fussy baby. He requires holding every waking moment. I don't mind holding him...but my house is sooo beyond messy, my other 2 kids are almost completely neglected. HOMESCHOOL? WHAT'S THAT??? Dinner?...can you say peanut butter burritos? And my hubby and I? We're having to do a lot of adjusting again..Oh, not to the baby....to EACHOTHER!!lol I know God is teaching us new things and growing us once again in a new way. I've decided to hold my baby because life is too short. I know I can't hold the other two as much right now...I'm just praying they feel held in their hearts <3 That's where I feel like a failure...cuz Kels and Brad seem to be getting sloppy leftovers from me. I'm always saying SHHHH SHHHH...YOU'LL WAKE THE BABY...GO OUT OF MY ROOM...SHHHHH. When the baby sleeps, I want to keel over rather than spend quality time with them. Poor Kels and Brad. I'm praying for God to help me find the balance:) Sorry I'm venting on your comments. Guess I should write on my own blog I threw to the curb:) I'm glad you are doing better...I think you are an amazing woman of God...and an amazing mommy. Thank you for your sincere heart and inspiring all the rest of us out of sinc cheerleaders :) Makes us lean on God more. I think he likes the out of sinc cheerleaders the most...cuz we all know we need Him to make it!!!