Enjoying What God Has Given Me

Why is it when you are pregnant the days just drag on and time seems to just go soooo slow? Then as soon as you have the baby time flies by so fast and your praying for it to slow down again.
Finley is now a week old. I can't even remember where the week went. I'm sure it had to do with all the pill popping I've been doing. Where did the time go? Her cord fell off today, either that or Landen pulled it off.
Just trying to keep the kids hands off of her is a full time job. Landen and Farrah are all over her. At least Landen didn't bite her toe like he did the day Farrah came home from the hospital just to see her cry.
I'm enjoying every minute of being a new mommy again. It doesn't matter if it's your first or your fifth it's just as amazing. I love just holding her and taking it all in. She's so small and I just want these days to last. It's also been a really rough recovery this time around.
With this c-section I had a lot of scar tissue which made it hard for the doctor to get Finley out. I had a lot of bleeding and there was a lot of tugging and pulling which left me bruised and swollen everywhere from my stomach down. I also developed a hematoma from it. They couldn't remove my staples because of all the swelling I had, they were afraid the incision would open. This added more pain to an already painful surgery. The first night they were afraid my kidneys were failing which was scary.
The morning after surgery the doctor came in my room to talk with Justin and I. She informed us that this was our last baby. It would be too life threatening to me to have another baby. We talked about being done but didn't want to do anything permanent just yet. We are both still young and weren't 100% sure. We always talked about maybe having six children if it was God's will. I'm so happy and blessed to have five healthy babies and I thank God for each of them. I think this is God's way of saying your done Bridget enjoy what you have. So I am.